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The one and only time I will ever talk/write about this
In the beginning, I didn’t know what to think. The first night we hung out was fun and different. You were funny and witty and knew all the right things to say. Granted, my friend had told me a lot of stories about you and to not get interested and so that’s exactly what I did. I got close but not too close and truth is I really wasn’t attracted to you in the slightest. But there was something about you that I couldn’t help notice. Even though you don’t want to show it/see it and your friends might say otherwise, you are a sweet and very smart person and you never treated me the way others said you would. And then the one night when you asked me if I liked you and I told you yes but deep down I felt terrible and knew I had lied, I knew things would be different. We started to hang out more and tell each other things and eventually my lie turned into a truth, I liked you. But all good things come to an end.
One thing that I can never dis-like about you is that you are always loyal to your friends. So when you told me that your friends always saw as a certain type of guy, I understood from then on it would never work. But you really hurt me and I can never admit that out loud but it’s obvious. The first night I saw you this summer, I knew you could see it on my face. I could tell there was something wrong with you too, like you felt terrible or you wanted to say something to me but you couldn’t. So I just smiled from across the room and walked over to you and your friends and said hi, and then begged my friend for us to leave and go to a new bar.
I really don’t like you anymore and trust me, I have moved on, even though people think I haven’t. But the reason you ended “it”, whatever it was, haunts me to this day. I can never tell any guy that I’ve met about my past relationships, ever. You made me extremely self-concious and re-think everything when I like someone new. I can’t be mad, I just hope that one day you realize that you are better than the things you do and you find someone that can allow you to realize that and to not let you turn it down and think otherwise.
